Find your own closure

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So I've been thinking about the Liberation Challenge I uploaded a while back, and I realised there was one that I can complete. Problem is, like all of us, I am human.

The idea of giving yourself closure is actually quite difficult. Forgiving your own, or someone else's mistakes can be daunting when your emotions don't know how to feel about things. So I decided tonight I would give myself closure. I will admit I have previously attempted this, however I sent it to the person I wanted closure from...and I was left frustrated and still didn't feel closure.

I decided to give myself closure, and not ask for it.

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Keeping your head above water

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So it's been a while...

I've been focusing on my Mental health the past few months, so it's safe to say I've learnt a few things about fighting a battle when you already feel defeated. At first, I'll admit I was adamant I wouldn't make it this far as I thought the depression dog had bit too hard this time. Slowly but surely I am proving myself wrong by finding my feet again. It hasn't been an easy process and I'm definitely not out of the clear yet...but the hope is beginning to return. For me, that's a huge improvement. 

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When the black dog bites

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So I'm back in England.

I know I promised an explanation...so I will give a short version.

My mental health was deteriorating severely whilst in Germany. I kept covering it up wanting to keep up the facade of everything being fine. But one night it came out. Since I couldn't get help in Germany, it was decided I should be sent back to England to see a doctor.

Since being back, everything feels overwhelming. I actively avoid places I've been to with Johnny, unfortunately including the hospital until I realised I could no longer put it off. I took a mental deep breath and reached out for help.

And I now feel defeated.

For anyone who's had therapy or counselling, you may be able to relate. Having to try and put your emotions into words feels like trying to explain the colour 3. It's difficult. I was told I was too aware for hospitalisation. So I did what I do best...I ran away.

It wasn't the greatest idea, but being in an overpopulated hospital and feeling like I wasn't going to get help took over. I panicked and ran.
Luckily a friend met me and allowed me to stay in his spare room so I wasn't on my own.

Today I went to the doctor and they are referring me back to the same team. I feel like I'm going to have to go through the same questions, the same probing...just to have the same outcome.

It's exhausting, I'm not going to lie!

I'm not sharing this to put people off getting help, I'm sharing this to remind people that getting help isn't as simple as everyone makes out. It will be tough. You may feel dismissed. It is a process, not a cure.

The point is to persevere and try to cooperate to the best of your ability at the moment. The fight may seem difficult, but it is definitely better then internally tearing yourself apart.

Stand your ground.

Battle the illness.

Keep fighting Soldier.

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PJs and Painkillers - Ehlers Danlos Syndrome

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Hey guys!
So I was nominated for a Liebster award...No I won't shut up about it. First good thing to happen to me for a while! First time I've felt excited for a while! So I will get overly hyped without shame!
Anyway!
Some of the questions I was asked caused me to think a lot about why I started blogging, and where I want to go with writing...

I know I shouldn't worry too much about that kind of stuff this early on, but hey...Anxiety Girl will be anxious!

Not only to I want to help in the fight for Equality, mainly towards mental health...I also want to raise awareness for invisible illnesses. So I decided to start a new series of posts that I will be calling :

"Pjs and Painkillers"

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I was nominated for a Liebster Award!

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This happened! I got nominated for the Liebster award! 
(And award given to new bloggers, by bloggers. A way of offering support and showing appreciation for new / low reader count blogs! And the lovely Kelly Render from the Blog "Motherhood: Shit just got real" decided I should receive the award! Thank you so much hun!
(Yes, I'm overly excited...My blog is getting recognition!)

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Crisis Box - The ingredients

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My first Geocache!!!

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(The kind of clues involved)

I am so glad I found out about this awesome treasure hunt adventure!

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I'm not being funny BUT...

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Bloggers Take on Africa backlash

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First of all, I'm not going to lie here...but the #BloggerstakeonAfrica project may be getting cancelled already after only a few weeks of planning.

Not because African Impact pulled out.

Not because we changed our minds (We're gutted!)

Not because of support issues (And those of you that supported us, if it does get cancelled your money will be returned as there was no bank account tied to the gofundme page...it will be refunded don't worry...you can always send it straight to a charity)

But because of hate.

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Why I'm not Ashamed

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If you haven't seen the hash-tag "I'm not Ashamed", Check this profile out.

Instead of hiding away from a mental health illness, a twitter user has decided it is time to stand up. To allow us to come together instead of hiding our illness. To turn around to the world and announce "Yes, I have a mental illness...

...And I am not Ashamed".

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If physical health was treated like mental health.

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When you have a mental illness, reaching out and facing up to it can be terrifying. Admitting it to friends and family can be just as scary.
Whilst many are lucky and have a good supportive structure around them, some have to deal with small minded comments. Sure they may have good intentions, but people that have never experienced mental health won't be able to understand how frustrating and upsetting some comments sound.

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Why you should make a Crisis Box

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In times of distress it becomes difficult to focus or bring yourself out of that pit of despair.
The thing is: Only you can bring yourself out of it.

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20 Ways to feel free (The Liberation Challenge!)

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It struck me that we all aim for a feeling of freedom.

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5 things that need to stop being taboo in this day and age!

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It's the year 2016, yet there are still people getting discriminated against for reasons that have no logic whatsoever...

I cannot fathom why there is still stigma in this day and age. Things that are completely normal, natural and so common are reasons why people are getting kicked down and made to feel isolated by the world.

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Stand together against Mental Health with me.

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My name is Pipsty and I have both studied and experienced first hand mental health. I currently have depression and anxiety.
And I am not ashamed of myself!

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The reason I made the leap of faith (and why you should too)

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Something that drives me crazy is how we follow what society sees as success instead of following our own goals. Society tells us that we need some form of education, a shiny career with a fancy office and a perfect family.

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10 people that prove we need to stop obsessing over selfies

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Before I begin this post, let me make one thing clear:

I also take Selfies!

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Epitaph for Jonathan Poundall

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This is the tribute I never got to give at your funeral:

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