So I've been thinking about the Liberation Challenge I uploaded a while back, and I realised there was one that I can complete. Problem is, like all of us, I am human.
The idea of giving yourself closure is actually quite difficult. Forgiving your own, or someone else's mistakes can be daunting when your emotions don't know how to feel about things. So I decided tonight I would give myself closure. I will admit I have previously attempted this, however I sent it to the person I wanted closure from...and I was left frustrated and still didn't feel closure.
I decided to give myself closure, and not ask for it.
So it's been a while...
I've been focusing on my Mental health the past few months, so it's safe to say I've learnt a few things about fighting a battle when you already feel defeated. At first, I'll admit I was adamant I wouldn't make it this far as I thought the depression dog had bit too hard this time. Slowly but surely I am proving myself wrong by finding my feet again. It hasn't been an easy process and I'm definitely not out of the clear yet...but the hope is beginning to return. For me, that's a huge improvement.
First of all, I'm not going to lie here...but the #BloggerstakeonAfrica project may be getting cancelled already after only a few weeks of planning.
Not because African Impact pulled out.
Not because we changed our minds (We're gutted!)
Not because of support issues (And those of you that supported us, if it does get cancelled your money will be returned as there was no bank account tied to the gofundme page...it will be refunded don't worry...you can always send it straight to a charity)
But because of hate.
...And I am not Ashamed".
When you have a mental illness, reaching out and facing up to it can be terrifying. Admitting it to friends and family can be just as scary.
Whilst many are lucky and have a good supportive structure around them, some have to deal with small minded comments. Sure they may have good intentions, but people that have never experienced mental health won't be able to understand how frustrating and upsetting some comments sound.
This is the tribute I never got to give at your funeral:
